It breaks my heart to feel how grateful you are to receive the sprinkles of love I offered you when we first met, to feel how starved you are of being deeply loved with no condition and doing. I want you to know that you are loved, when you merely present yourself and allow all of you to be witnessed. Whether it’s your pain, your wisdom, your hairy chest, you wounded heart, your sweaty body, they are accepted here, all of it.
They are loved and cherished because these are the parts of you that are unique and alive. I want you to know that my love is offered freely to your open heart. My heart flows with love for you, and your presence alone inspires that love, nothing extra or added is necessary to create that love.
When I express my sexual thought to you, I want you to know that you bring up these feelings in me, and I share them with you out of enthusiasm, because I feel blessed that you arouse these rare feelings in me. To desire a man is a gift, a bliss, to care for a man and feel that deep love flowing and glowing makes me feel alive, it makes me feel connected to being a woman. I can feel all of my chakras and a deep gentle shuddering in my heart, as it contracts, responding to that rare fuzzy feeling. Who would have guessed that my heart is capable of loving a man that deeply?
My heart is filled with love for you, at this moment. I look forward to learning with you, being with you, growing with you, and loving you, and being loved by you. I know one of these days we’ll grow apart, perhaps out of life situation, perhaps by our own choice; and that’s okay because your love changed me, it healed me and made me a happier and stronger person. And hopefully my love would have changed you and helped you grow and heal as well.
Forever is not the assumption when I am with you, because I am not seeking you out for the sake of you providing for me for the rest of my life, like my ancestor mother might have hoped from her own man. I am here to share my life with you, whether it’s one week, one month, or a year. I have no attachment on how long it should be, or the assumption that it should be the rest of our lives. Because whatever happens, I am confident it’s right, I will trust it’s what’s suppose to be shared between us. And I know the moments we share will be beautiful, because you touch my heart in a way that no one else has in a while. I want to enjoy the way it flies and sings when you are near, when I am thinking of you.
I need to know that you understand this is how I feel, that I love you means simply, my heart is overflowing with deep care and tenderness when I see you. It doesn’t mean I expect or assume we will be together for a specific length of time, or that we need to force the relationship any other way than what is suppose to be. I love you, and I want you to know that.