You said you were feeling sick, you had a fever and your throat hurts. You couldn’t get any work done and you feel terrible.
I was feeling pain last night. The pain of not being with you, the pain of yearning for you, yet knowing it’s not realistic. The pain emerge because I have conflicting desires between my rational and emotional parts. It pains me to be divided, lack of clarity.
I want to tell you that I wish to find the person who desires the same as me: to be in a healthy and compatible relationship, where our goals agree, and we are happy to support each others needs.
Fights scare me, emotional pain drains me of the pretty pink cheeks, and with it my life energy. I must to stay emotionally healthy in all my relationships, because I value the state of my emotional health, and I need to be healthy in order to function and experience joy.
Today I hope I am finally able to sit across from you, and tell you with no uncertain terms, that I value and prioritize the state of my emotional health.
I still love you, but I must love me before there is a healthy person to love you. Just like your ache throats and fever, my emotional pain and suffering are real if less visible. Today they have a voice and they are speaking up to be heard.
I value the state of my emotional health, I hope you understand and support me in my pursuit of self improvement.